Self-Harm

*Trigger warning* 

Hey. So this is an extremely touchy subject. And something i can relate to greatly. If you do not know what self-harm is it is really just hurting yourself and “enjoying” the pain. That is a terrible description but hopefully by the end of this you understand it more.

Self-harm can include many things. Cutting, burning, biting, scratching, hitting yourself, stabbing yourself; those are just a few. The most popular is cutting and its the only one i have experience in. These are done on the wrists most likely. If not its done on the hips or the thighs. Some people will say that they could only do their wrists; if they did it anywhere else it felt like they were betraying something. Others started on their wrists but unfortunately they “ran out of space” and moved to other places. Some people wanted to do their wrists but didn’t want to wear long sleeves all the time and also didn’t want to have to hide their wrist from everyone. Its really different for everyone.

The problem with self-harming. It IS an addiction. That sounds bad but its just like cigarettes and alcohol. Addicting and takes over most of your life. Some people (the tumblr ones) say that everyone needs something to take away the pain; be that sex, drugs, alcohol, or self harm. That is really not true in most cases but in some cases it is.

Another problem with self harming. Once someone finds out you get quite a lot of attention. If your in school you have weekly visits with a guidance counselor, your teachers may treat you differently, and most of all; students WILL think you are weird. Now you may not think this is true and in a few cases its not. The only experience i have are me and my friends. For me i had people literally come up to me and say you have no reason for that your life is perfect. I will say one day why that isn’t true but that greatly pissed me off. My friends were exiled and treated like the weird kid. One thing that comes with self harming. The attention seekers. I hate saying that but it is true. I was one. I had underlying reasons but in the beginning they weren’t big enough to self-harm. I know someone currently who does this. Its so stupid that someone would put themselves through pain they didn’t even want just for some lousy people thinking that you are weird and terrible. And most people who start then realize that they cant stop no matter how hard they try.

The last thing i will say about self-harm. WHEN SOMEONE SELF HARMS THEY ARE IN SOME WAY DEPRESSED. No matter if they live in a mansion and get whatever they want. With depression usually comes loss of will to live or thoughts about suicide. I will probably go more in depth about this but my blog is much longer than i’m required and i would rather get this done so i could finish something else. I will leave you with this. You ARE worth it. Don’t ever let someone make you think that you aren’t.

(as my viewers seem to be from the US) here are some hotlines in the US:

US Suicide Hotline

1-800-784-2433

NDMDA Depression Hotline – Support Group

800-826-3632

I know you all can make it. Just one more day. Tell yourself that.

LITTLE NOTE

I mean no harm in this whatsoever. This is a topic i will come back to as I have a decent amount of experience in it. If you need to talk i can give you my instagram or snapchat

(insta) Trashemoperson

(snap) Ky.jamieson

I would prefer you contact me on instagram as i would know who you are instead of you just being a creepy stalker. sozz gotta make sure i’m safeish (i’m talking like a celebrity lord help me)

welp boo bye:)

Depression anxiety and everything in between

I really don’t want to write about this, but its all i could come up with so here goes nothing.

Depression is a monster. It consumes your thoughts, actions, your life. Depression is something that in this current time is really prominent. With saying this though comes the fact that not everyones depression is super bad. Sometimes its trauma induced, which is what i had when my depression first started. That story’s for another day however. Some depression comes from difficult home life or other mental illnesses. I will be the one to say that no matter how small, if you think you have depression, then i will believe you. However i have seen many people lie about having depression for attention and that is not forgivable. See then there are the people who self harm for attention. I know some people that did that. Its really stupid because when you do it for attention everyone is feeling sorry for you and trying to help you but when you are struggling to stay alive on a day to day basis your a freak…

Anxiety is something that for me came with my depression. It is common to have anxiety and depression but not certain. Most people have anxiety and then get depression because of their anxiety. Anxiety can be better or worse than depression. On one hand anxiety will only come when you are under extreme stress or just not in the right place. On the other hand anxiety is just always there lurking, waiting for you to do something stupid. An example is when you need to talk to people or are put into a situation with a lot of people. Your brain tells you to talk to people or they will think your weird but then you remember that if you try and talk with people it will just be awkward and then you worry that people will still think your weird.

Anyway ya thats a little rant on some mental illnesses. I highly recommend watching “explaining my depression to my mother” its slam poetry and just describes everything really well.

Anyway enjoy this photo of a husky.